|From "Kristin's Christmas Past"|
How many times has someone asked us, "If you could go back and change one thing in your life, what would it be?" If your response was anything like mine, you said, "Nothing, because everything would be different." True. But there are most likely things in our past that we look back on with regret; we wish that we had handled a situation differently, responded kinder, or made smarter choices. It's easy to look back and say, "Coulda, woulda, shoulda..." Too often, this revelation comes too late. We may have lost relationships, jobs or opportunities because of our poor choices.
The good news is that, while we can't go back and change the past, we can impact the future by changing our now...the present. I love the Twelve Step program because Step 8 says, "Made a list of all people we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all" and Step 9 says, "Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others."
Of course, you'd need to know the previous 7 steps to truly grasp the power or those steps. Anyone who has been through any kind of recovery, whether it's alcohol related or otherwise, usually learns---and memorizes---these steps. And yes, they are powerful. You can view these steps yourself at Alcoholics Anonymous 12 Steps. I highly suggest you do. You can take out the word "alcohol" and replace it with whatever you feel powerless over---a person, a sin, or even your past. The twelve steps are powerful because they involve your realizing your powerlessness, and giving up and letting God take charge of your life. Searching yourself. Search me, O God, and know my heart...(Psalm 139:23). Admitting and confessing that you messed up. Confess your sins to each other, and pray for each other, that you may be healed (James 5:16).
It is only when we realize that we messed up that we can change our now. When we realize how our poor choices have impacted other peoples' lives and how the things we've done in our past have hurt others, and hurt ourselves...when we desire for God to change our heart, only then do we really desire to change our now. Now is for the taking. Now is gone as soon as you get to your next now. Now is momentary. You will never get now back. You will never get your past back. Now is so fleeting, that the now you just read is now in the past. Now is like trying to hold a snowflake, or grasp the water that flows over rocks in a stream. It cannot be held, and it cannot be reclaimed. It is fleeting.
You can't go back and change your past. But you can make amends, once you've set your heart straight with God. You can impact your future, but you can't really change that either. It hasn't happened yet, so you really have no control over it. The only thing you can change is now. Admit that you are powerless over your situation, turn your will and your live over to God and receive the power from on High to change your now! Determine to determine your now!
Blessings Along the Path,
Song of the Day:
Change My Heart O God (Eddie Espinosa)
In case you're into really sappy Christmas movies, and you'd like to see this movie I talked about, there is still time to see it!
Kristin's Christmas Past (Lifetime movie) Schedule