Thursday, January 23, 2014

Hello, My Name is Mary and I'm a Sugarholic

I have this daily struggle with my flesh when it comes to sugar. I've been trying so hard to eat right, and I do pretty well until lunchtime. After lunch, I always seem to crave sweets. Rather than deny myself what I'm craving by substituting it with celery (yeah right, like that's gonna help!) or an apple, as my doctor suggests (sorry, doc, it's just not the same thing. I need refined sugar!) I give in by allowing myself a small bag of low-calorie treats. But I want more. A cup of tea in the evening is just begging for some shortbread!

The other night when I was snowbound, I got bored. I made cookies. Now I'm eating them. I just can't seem to get control over this sugar thing! 

I am probably also addicted to reading. I cannot get enough books. I absolutely love the library, and they know my name there! Is that a bad thing? Probably not. However, anything in excess is probably not a good thing. I probably read too much and neglect other things, like preparing dinner.

We often turn our nose up at drug addicts, alcoholics, sex addicts, or people with any other "undesirable" behavior that causes addiction. I truly cannot understand how someone can become addicted to those things, simply because I am not. But how am I any different when I cannot control a sugar addiction? When I feel as though I "have" to have some sort of sweet thing after a meal? How easy would it be for me to go without? And would I think about it constantly? Probably not very, and probably yes.
Yeah, this didn't work for me...
I do all that and still want the cookie!

I'm no different from an alcoholic. My addiction is just more controlled. I probably won't lose my job, my money and my family, and end up on the streets begging for a cookie. It doesn't affect my behavior like drugs or alcohol does. It's acceptable, where something like porn addiction is not. 

Okay, maybe it's not an addiction. Or...maybe it is. I guess that's for me to work out with God. However, it's opened my eyes to the bigger picture of addiction. I would venture to say that most of us have something that we could call an addiction of sorts, something that we struggle with that would be very difficult to give up. We might label it an addiction, a struggle, an issue, an unhealthy habit or a sin. The question is not so much, "What is my addiction?" but, "Why do I feel the need for this?" I believe it's important to discover the emotions behind the addiction or whatever you want to call it. A friend recently told me that this is important because without getting to the root, you'll just find another addiction. So true.

The Twelve Steps, originally intended for alcoholics, is a great program that works for anyone dealing with an "issue." It speaks of a "higher power" that everyone must acknowledge before they can break the cycle of addiction. As you know, my "higher power" is a biblical God. I cannot conquer any addiction, trial. issue, habit or problem without my God. Perhaps reviewing those twelve steps wouldn't be such a bad idea for me right now.

What are you dealing with that's controlling you? Check out the twelve steps, and let God help you with it.

I know I've talked about this before, but here they are again:

The Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous
(replace alcohol with whatever is controlling you):

1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable. 

2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. 

3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. 

4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. 

5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. 

6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character. 

7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings. 

8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all. 

9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others. 

10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it. 

11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will

Blessings Along the Path,

Song of the Day
Nothing But the Blood of Jesus (All Sons & Daughters)

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