Sometimes I think this series of hikes was more about my learning to listen to, respect, and submit to my husband than hiking. Why did it all have to do with following directions? I've sure come a long way since the first time I decided I knew a better way. Or the week after that--our first week on the AT--when I STILL thought my way was better.
I pretty much knew where we were headed this week, but after 8 weeks of lessons on letting go of control and allowing Hubbles to take charge of the directions and logistics of shuttling two cars, I found myself following him without thinking of where we were headed.
Nine weeks it took me to get to the point of not caring about directions, not feeling like I needed to be in charge, not wondering how to get from Point B to Point A (because we dropped his car off at Point B, where we'd end the hike then traveled to Point A, where we'd start the hike).
I didn't think I had a trust issue but apparently, I did. I couldn't blindly follow my husband. I didn't trust him to be right. I needed to know where we were going, how we were getting there, and if it was the quickest way (as if it really mattered?). And I needed to have directions, just in case we got separated.
As we drove down Rt. 80 this week, it occurred to me that I was singing along to my music and following his every move. If he changed lanes, so did I. When he sped up, I did too. When it seemed like he was going too slow, I slowed down and kept singing along to my music. My gps was not on, and I had no directions except to follow.
I finally trusted my husband to lead.
And I thought about how similar that is to our walk (or ride?) with God.
How long does it take us to trust God? To abdicate control? To blindly follow without questioning?
We are thrilled to be on a journey with God, but we still want to know where we're going, how we'll get there, how long it will take, and if it is the quickest way, because yes, that does matter! Oh, and can we please have directions in case we get separated?
God promises us this:
I know the plans I have for you; plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and a future (Jer 29:11).
But He doesn't promise to give us the specifics ahead of time.
Yes, sometimes it is.
What's most scary for me is not so much the unknown, but the abdication of control.
But He also promises us this:
I will never leave you nor forsake you (Jos 1:5).
I learned that my husband would not allow me to be separated from him. He cares too much for me. Why would I doubt that?
Even though he has a tendency to drive through amber stoplights, leaving me behind at the red light, he is always watching, and pulls over to wait for me. He would never leave me to find my own way without direction.
So it is with our Lord.
All we need to do is get in our little spiritual car, put on some music and sing along. When he changes lanes, so do we. He sets the pace, and all we need to do is follow, not questioning the whys or wheres or hows.
Oh, and if you really need directions, you'll find them in the Owner's Manual.
Blessings on and off the path,
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